Rotten Bananas

I am going to take a quick detour from talking about food today, so bear with me!

There are many blogs that I read, and many different types of authors. Some are funny, some are bitchy, some are eternal optimists  and some are unbridled enthusiasts. The type of author I strive to be, is honest. I’m a non -BS person who is always willing to tell it like it is without a sweet sugar coating.

There are a few blogs I read and think “Wow they have an annoyingly perfect life.” They are always going on great trips, have countless opportunities open to them, are always eating something fantastic, and they are in the best shape.

Everything is always so positive and upbeat. And then without fail one day I go to their site and they have this closet opening post about all these terrible things that have been going on between the lines and it’s like WTF?! Why didn’t you just say so?

It’s funny because sometimes I look over past post and realize my life sounds WAY more interesting in print/photo than it seems in real life. HOWEVER I always try to be honest.

I post when recipes go very wrong,

I post when I’m grumpy

And I post about my ongoing frustration with my thyroid issues.

It’s officially been a year since I was  diagnosed with hypothyroidism.

If you need to catch up, you can read about the process.

June 2012

August 2012

December 2012

January 2013

March 2013

I look back at that first post I wrote about the diagnosis along with all my fears, which did in fact come true. To put myself totally out there, I have gained 10 pounds in the past year, without any change to my diet and exercise. My face is puffy, I have dark circles under my eyes and my mood swings are scary. It sucks. A lot. As I have discussed before, your thyroid is essentially your hormone hub and it tells the body how to store protein and fat. When it’s not functioning properly, your body doesn’t know how to store nutrients and your metabolism doesn’t operate appropriately.
I’m not writing this for a pity party or a sympathy comment, I just want to be honest and talk about my real day to day life. Although not many people in my blog life share these particular issues, everyone’s got something going on, and I just don’t see the point in masking my frustration and overall-pissed-off-ness with positivity and rainbows. Lets face it, I have never been someone who can hide my true feelings. LOL
I started my blog as an outlet for me to discuss all the flavors of my life; the sweet, the savory, and the yucky. Sometimes life hands you lemons, and other times it hands you a rotten banana. Well screw you rotten banana, I want some damn lemonade!

Question of the Day: What’s your rotten banana?

Listen to Your Body

Everything happens for a reason.

I went to the doctor last week because of my virus, and while I was there they drew blood to check my thyroid levels. I am supposed to be going every 8 weeks to have it checked, but week 8 last fell in the middle of the honeymoon. I had been putting it off, and putting it off because I HATE having blood drawn, and even more than that, I HATE the smell of hospitals.

Long story short, the doctor called and told me my thyroid levels were “wayyyy off” all the sudden and that she was upping my hypothyroid meds on a trial basis to get it under control.( Click here for the full thyroid debacle)

Honestly, if I hadn’t gone in for the virus, who knows when I would have found out. Stupid, stupid me.

As soon as she said it, a few pieces began to fall into place. Remember that 8 pounds that I have been struggling to lose? Remember when my feet kept falling asleep while I was running? Those are all symptoms of a thyroid imbalance. Once again, my body was trying to tell me something, and I refused to listen. UGH!!!!

Well hopefully the new dose of meds will get my mind and body back on track because right now, I cannot even see a clear path. You know when you find out something is wrong and all the sudden you are super aware of it? Well ever since I got that phone call I have been experiencing every symptom of hypothyroidism there is, including the depression and anxiety. It’s that  “my body is not my own” feeling.

Sorry for the frustrating post, but I rly needed to vent. 🙂 Luckily, it’s the holiday season and I have plenty of Christmas music to snap me out of my blah stage.